I leave it to You

How hard i have been tried, i couldn't push my self to be stronger.

So, now, i just leave it to You, Allah..

May You always protect and bless us..aamiin

Welcome December

the journey wasn't always smooth :(

i have passed difficult time, and got precious learning from that.

but sometimes, i feel it will be never be same again, whatever it takes.

but i believe, when i'm feeling blue, i will let it free

because the sadness sometimes can make me more mature

so, it is oke to being sad, isn't it? 

happy shunny december 

:)

The Greatest Love of All

this song will always remind me how important to love myself

because sometimes i dont care about myself and often to push my self so hard

i must learn to let it flow by invisible hand direction, which always have the best plan,

whatever it takes

 

I believe the children are our are future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be
Everybody searching for a hero
People need someone to look up to
I never found anyone to fulfill my needs
A lonely place to be
So I learned to depend on me

[Chorus:]
I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all 

I believe the children are our future
Teach them well and let them lead the way
Show them all the beauty they possess inside
Give them a sense of pride to make it easier
Let the children's laughter remind us how we used to be

[Chorus]

And if by chance, that special place
That you've been dreaming of
Leads you to a lonely place
Find your strength in love

 

 

The Flight #BC-A902-DPK#

Pilot

deny “keli” junanto

He was born as a youngest, the only one boy in his family. 

He has 3 older sister, honestly, at the beginning, i were worried of them, hehehe :) 

i remember, my mom asked me at one night in my little warm room, when i had long chat with her #miss you a lot mom, you are the one of the good listener i ever have#

she asked :  “were you sure, you can accepted the 3 sisters of him? Please, think and  consider about it”. I answered that i didn’t worry about it, even though until the engagement night i haven't ever met the eldest sister #forgive us, sist :)#  and, now the fact is... Alhamdulillah....., we are a big team which can share any idea, because we are very close :0

back to the pilot story :)

Growing by surrounded females atmosphere, make him grew to be warm, patient, friendly, caring, and funny even though sometimes spoil, fussy, sensitive, relaxing and hard-hearted person :)

He has unique personality. Truly, living together for 10 years with him, i still learn and learn recognizing him, with him life is full of surprises ;(

 

Now, he is 35 years old. He is a good father and husband. He always have time for playing with child, he loves and cares them very much. He dedicated the whole of his life for his family. the child adore him very much. 

 

 trixaningtyas “trixie” gayatri

Co Pilot

 Lets talking about my self now :)

It will be difficult because sometimes people easier to recognize somebody else rather than herself.

Hhhhm, anyhow, i will try....

I am a perfectionist, stubborn, enthusiastic, and vicious person, but in a positive way, i am a kind of friendly, caring, romantic, and funny person #hopes it’s not over#

As a third child with one younger brother, i grew up as a hard worker. I studied hard to finish my double degree college in the same time. I finished my postgraduate while pregnant Kresna, and Alhamdulillah, because of Allah blessing of course, I can finished all level of education on time with quite good achievement ;)   

My childhood was very happy. My parents were always support everything i want to do (until now, Alhamdulillah), included choose my prince as my husband and government field as my work field.

As a wife, i feel haven’t became as a best one sometimes :(

sometimes, i don't obey what my husband said and often to press him by asking too much and  be a jealousy wife #please forgive me Ay...#

As a fully working mother, i try hard to give them attention as much as i could. Alhamdulillah, they quite close to me J when i stay @ home, they always want to sit close to me, share every single activities story in a day. Even though i don't satisfy them by playing game together or the other “phisical” activities, i believe they feel comfort to spend the time with me #hope and pray#

 

With several roles i have, i still have “me time” for relaxing :)

The fun, light or thriller novel I choose as a relaxing media for me, besides I like to go the beauty salon also, take any body treatment :)

I’am 38 years old now.

I have a dream, someday, I can go to the Baitullah with my lovely husband, InsyaAllah...

If Allah SWT permit me, I want to die at the young age, in the good deathbed. Khusnul khotimah. Amin.

By remember the death, I wish I always feel afraid to do anything which Allah SWT dislike, always prepare myself and never wasting time.   

mutiara “diva” sakinah

Passenger #1

 She is my lovely pearl of heart. She is very special because she was born with the anomaly heartbeated. Alhamdulillah, she grows normally. Now she is 9 years old.

She is a warm, friendly and caring child. She cares her brother very much, and give him big big influence J #positive and negative of course :) #

She wants to imitate everything I do :)

She dreams to be a researcher someday :)

She likes play like a boy sometimes, even though she has already like to perform as a big girl, just like me when i was a child :0

Raditya “kresna” fajrian: The youngest passenger :) 

He makes us laugh and laugh everyday

He is a smart, creative, aggressive, and moody, but sometimes he is a vicious boy :(

 

He was born while i tried to finish my thesis, Alhamdulillah, he never let me down, he is good and tough baby.

He is 4 years old now, a student of level A kindergarten. He likes to go to school and always enjoy the lesson. Every evening, he tells me the new story, new song, new pray and so on..

I hope, he will grow to be a brave and religious man. He has to be good leader for his future family, and have to able to protect her sister.

May Allah SWT always bless him in every single step of his life. Amin.

The Start of Journey

That cold morning, i remember, June,3,2001, at my house in Bandung, I was ready dressed up since early in the morning. My heart beated hard wait for my ‘prince’ and his family coming from Jakarta. Alhamdulillah, they came on time and savely  #phhfiuhhh :)#
 

I remember, i  couldn’t wait to see him, looked at his eyes and asked “are u ready???”, but unfortunately, i didn’t get the opportunity to say “hai” to him because i had to wait and sit nicely in the room :(

Finnaly, the bell rang at 09.00 am :D

The journey started when my prince said Ijab Kabul, namely an impressive and blessed promise to take and care for me as a wife, in the better or worse because of Allah SWT.  As well as me, i promise to Allah SWT to take him as a husband, and obey him as a family leader.

We were at the start of journey, wore the Central Javanese wedding costume :)

Today, the journey has been running for ten years, Alhamdulillah..., we have been shared every moment we have. We love and care each other.
During a while, we share many happiness, sadness, roles, thoughts, wealthy, even sickness :)

We are blessed with the birth of sweet cuties girl Mutiara Diva Sakinah @ 2002, and handsome strapping boy Raditya Kresna Fajrian @ 2007, big Thanks To Allah SWT ;)

I hope Allah SWT still allow me to face every single moment in many years to go with them, InsyaAllah....

 

Second Chance

I just got it,

Second chance from Allah Almighty,

A chance which let me reborn as new person.

Really, i reborn as new person, with thicker conviction, that Allah loves me very much.

I have been passed through one difficult year , but i call it a precious year. I will remember it forever.

Many learning i get from that moment. The most valuable learning is new conciousness :)  

I hope the new conciousness will be able to company me to face every live step in many years to go.

I’ll do the best thing i could just because of Allah the One, Lillahi Ta’Ala 

I have one big heart which full of love, love for Allah Almighty :)



Greetings :)

Finnaly, after few years inactive, now i start to share everything i thought, feel and do in running daily activities as a wife and as a fullworking mother. May Allah SWT always bless my effort to give love, love and love to everybody who loves me :)